On his-tory lessons, privacy meter and sensitivity index

I have learned that each individual has his or her own level of comfort on how much they want other people to know who they are inside - I call it privacy meter and sensitivity index. Because I am very open about myself - I don't like to hide things and I'm not a mystery - I have assumed that other people do too. But I guess not many people are as open, despite their education and social circle. So, my lesson for the month - I must learn how to be more sensitive and thoughtful.

On that note, I experienced an interesting development in my newly developed relationship with Medicine Man, a biotechnologist who works in one of the subdiaries at the company I'm working for. Ummp...yeah okay, he's my colleague, in a way. After not talking to each other in the past two months over a misunderstanding, we finally met up last Sunday. He came by our exhibition booth and asked me out to lunch.

Over our Kenny Rogers roast chicken lunch, he said I have misunderstood what he meant - he said not that I am not "good" enough for him and not that I am not trustworthy enough because I'm sociable and outgoing, and have many friends.

Just that he thinks I am too good to be true. He feels that he does not measure up to me in many ways, and with my circle of friends, he thinks I have a lot more choices in men. But despite his shortcomings, I am still being nice to him and accepts him without prejudice. No woman has been this nice to him and he finds it not so believeable. So he just refused to believe that I am for real. Ummp...macam ni pun ada ker?

Gee...I dunno what to say. But that's what The Ex Hubby told me too. What is wrong with all the men in the world nowadays - I get dumped for being too nice?

When Medicine Man and I last spoke, I had given him a piece of my mind. I told him I am fed up having to try to be what he wanted me to be - the perfect wife model that I can never be.

I am a career woman model, and if I cannot have a man who will love me for what I am, I would rather not have a man at all. If I as I am not good enough for the man, then I will not try to be what he thinks is "good enough" just to please him and keep relationship alive. I have done that for The Ex Hubby, and I will NOT do that again, ever, for any man. He'll just have to take me as I am - flawed or not - because I will do the same for him.

Now after saying that with such a "punch" to his face, he thinks I'm real and believable now?

As a way of saying "I'm sorry", he got me a pair of diamond earrings and a matching pendant to go with it. He said if we can make it work, then we should go look for a matching diamond ring too. Ummmp I dunno what's real now, but I do like the diamonds he got me :))


Manogram

Now, correct me if I'm wrong - you have to be mean and feisty to get a man's love and attention and to make him believe that you are for real??? My best friend, Belle of The Party said I better have my boxing gloves handy at all times, in case I need to give him another "wake up and smell the coffee" feeling.

Another surprise, Medicine Man has agreed to go with me to Malam Gala Pencarian Gadis Jelita tonight. Usually, he hates going to social functions. This time, he agreed without any persuading! Wow, what have I done? The boxing glove, eh? Nah, must be the Gadis Jelita candidates.


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