Life goes on

The poet, Robert Frost said, "In three words I can sum up everything I've learned about life: it goes on."

I trained for The Rat Race and The Big Walk today, and looking at my current level of stamina, I can manage to qualify only for The Tortoise Award lah. My team left me by a good half mile - I just can't keep up. This is an uphill battle!

Likewise, everyday has been an uphill climb for me for the past one year. There are times I feel like ending it all and just cease to exist. But is it worth it, and for what? There's absolutely no reason why I should - I do have a good life, I have a career and a good paying job, I have family and friends who love me - some would even go out of their way to come to my aid. Life sounds perfect, right? So there is absolutely no valid reason whatsoever.

Just that I'm feeling so lonely, so, so very lonely and yet life must go on. The curtains are still up - so the show must go on.

I wanted so much to blame The Ex-Hubby, and I used to do that. But I don't anymore because it doesn't lead to anything at all, except for heartache. I must face the music and smell the coffee, and realise, he's probably laughing at me for all I know - so why bother.

The Ex Hubby is not worth my pain and tears. On that note, nobody is - and the person who is worth your tears, won't make you cry.