Thinking out of the box

Belle of the Party once told me that I've not been spending my time with people who matter most to me. One of the reasons I keep meeting people who are wrong for me and who are with me for the wrong reasons. I think I need to prioritize my time for the people I really should be with, not simply going with the flow of things. I need to incorporate more planning in my personal life. Nevertheless, at the moment, prioritizing the people in my life looks pretty much impossible -- at least not without hurting someone's feelings.

Opting out and spending some time solo may be my best option. So, travelling alone would be a good thing for me as I would be spending my time alone thinking, and thinking out of the box too, because I'd see things in a different perspective.

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For the most part of my life, I've always needed company for everything that I do, and doing things and going places alone scared me sometimes. It didn't help that The Ex Hubby loved playing hero to this once-upon-a-time damsel in distress, he hardly let me do anything on my own. It made become a "make-do woman" because I became emotionally dependent on my "hero" ex-hubby, and made me feel so helpless in some ways. When I looked back at how I used to be, I see a pathetically helpless, naive, gullible and conventional woman who I was ashamed to be. Reality bites when The Ex Hubby left me naked and alone. Post-separation struggles and bitterness and post-divorce turns of event in my life have made me stronger and wiser.

Thinking out of the box, I think I will feel lighter and less weighed down by all the conventions that I have in my life. I will undoubtedly solve some of the problems I've encountered in my past and present relationships.