I couldn't sleep last night after waking up from a very bad dream - a nightmare. In the nightmare, The Ex-hubby became a demon that was slained by an unknown angel who then rescued me.
When everything didn't work to make me go back to sleep again, I sat down and prayed to God, to make me feel calmer. Last night I also took the opportunity to pray to God to help me find my "jodoh". I don't wanna live alone anymore. I have to admit, one of the hardest thing about being single again, is that, celibacy is not an easy thing to do!
Every month, every week, every day, every minute and every second counts when your biological clock is ticking and your hormones raging. I admit, I do need a man!
As author Nizami Ganzavi aptly wrote in "Laila Majnun": "Only man can know the pain of having something he does not need, while needing something he does not have..."
Well, you can say that you don't need to be married to have sex, but I really don't wanna go there. I would rather have sex in a committed relationship, a marriage. Then it would really give meaning to the word "making love".
There are 100 ways to speak your mind, 200 ways to write your thoughts, 300 ways to get angry, 400 ways to have your piece of mind, 500 ways to find your lover, 600 ways to leave your lover, 700 ways to please your lover, 800 ways to piss off your lover, 900 ways to please your mom and yet 1000 ways to piss off your mom. But there is absolutely NO WAY I'm going to remain celibate for the rest of my life. Arrrrggggghhhhh noooooooooo!
Three years after my marriage to The Ex-Hubby collasped, and having gone through hell and back to heaven many times over, I believe that now I am ready to be in a committed relationship and in good time, get married and have children. Doesn't matter what took me so long, but what really matters is that I have arrived - finally :)
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Most interesting blog u have there, lots of pain I noticed. But never the less, I have always told my friends that “time” is the best healing medicine. Nothing nor no words can be comforting enough to help u ease pain during those heated times. Best to leave them alone.
Wai Mun
Hang in there! And good luck! :)
Thank you, it's good to have friends. Hehehe, friends stay with you longer than boyfriends do anyways :)
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A minister decided that a visual demonstration would add emphasis to his Sunday sermon. Four worms were placed into four separate jars.
The first worm was put into a container of alcohol.
The second worm was put into a container of cigarette smoke.
The third worm was put into a container of chocolate syrup.
The fourth worm was put into a container of good clean soil.
At the conclusion of the sermon, the Minister reported the following results:
The first worm in alcohol - Dead.
The second worm in cigarette smoke - Dead.
Third worm in chocolate syrup - Dead.
Fourth worm in good clean soil - Alive.
So the Minister asked the congregation, "What can we learn from this demonstration?"
A little old woman in the back quickly raised her hand and said, "As long as you drink, smoke and eat chocolate, you won't have worms!"
Editorial: Every observation we each make in life has as many facets as there are perspectives. We all possess the divine capacity to shift perspectives and CHOOSE which, if any, to accept. Just because you "believe" something does not make it true, correct, valid, or required as part of your life. The ONLY law that is universal is the Law of Love; everything else can be manipulated; yes, even gravity. But Love is disguised; masked it with our myriad preconceived notions of what is right and wrong, good and bad, light and dark. Suspend your reliance on the dual qualities and begin to know God who is Love. It takes a mental intention, a determined will, and a God that doesn't live in a book on the book shelf, or is able to be conjured up once a week or once a year like a genie, a God that is far greater than any person yet who is able to gentle touch and guide each of us. But you must Choose the miracles of your Life, otherwise they will just sit there and wait for you.
Rick Ellwood
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