Mayday, Mayday, it's D-Day!!!

As I stood and wept in the Sabah Syariah Court's ladies washroom, I looked in the mirror. I am looking at myself from outside myself:

A woman remembers her first love and tries to recapture that strange hour, the memory of which changes her deepest feeling and makes her so happy in spite of all the bitterness of its mystery.

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Today, our divorce was solemnized at the Kota Kinabalu Syariah Court. The D-Day.

I couldn't believe that was The Hubby's voice as he said the "lafaz" in front of the Registrar. He was trembling, and so was I. Before we parted, we just looked at each other and hugged for the last time. We both cried - it was hard to let go of 15 years of our lives - but we both know we must go our own separate ways now.

I couldn't believe The Hubby and I are no longer married. As I flushed the toilet, I felt as if 15 years of sweet and bitter memories together are being flushed down into the toilet when he told me exactly one year ago he wanted a divorce. Today, we are just one month and one week shy of our 8th wedding anniversary - August 18. Eight years of marriage flushed down the toilet huh?

After all the crying was done, I wiped every drop of my tears - not a single drop left unchecked. Outside, my brothers, Shamus and Huffiz were waiting for me - they had accompanied to Sabah to give me moral support. I'm the Big Sister, I must not let them see how vulnerable I was.