"Bite the bullet and get it done" they say. Yeah, that is easier said than done lah. A girl gotta do what a girl gotta do.
I think I have been in denial. Time to be honest with myself. I admit, as much as I'm thriving in my public life - in career and in professional and social circles - my private life is seriously lagging behind. Some women really thought, wow, she's got it made in her life - good career and achievements etcetera - who needs a man? But honestly, I don't feel complete without my other half. He's out there!
Yes, I'm biting the bullet - my love life really sucks! Everytime I think I'm on to something good that could be very promising, I got blasted to ground zero again and again. Come to think of it, my predicament is almost like Bali. Everytime it thrives again, it got bomb blasted. Everytime I think of going to Bali, it gets bombed too.
When I think of my private life, I feel like I'm in the middle of a maelstrom. Perhaps that is the reason why I keep building up my public life - and in denial over the sorry state of my private life.
The battle over what's best for my public life and what's best for my personal life has come to a head. But I'm unsure about which side to put my best efforts into.
If you ask me if I would throw my career for a man, the answer is definitely no. Unless he's a prince or wealthy enough to provide for me then I don't need my career and comfortable salary. Quite unlikely because let's face it, I'm not Miss Universe. Men being men, the boys will always go for beautiful face or big boobs, or both!
I'm doing my best to find a compromise to balance this act called life. How can some people achive successes in both their public and private lives? I gotta learn this. Right now, I would like to think that I'm just a late bloomer. But I'll get there!
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Welcome to the club.
Ain't too bad actually after a while.
sabar saja lah dik. humans are like that. how we wish we have this, have that tapi bila dapat maybe menyesal one. Ok, u found yr new other half, 2 yrs down the road, kahwin then 8 yrs later, will it meet the same ending as yr first? Life is a challenge to u as to test how u handle each junction u come across.
Jodoh pertemuan di tangan Tuhan - as well as when, how and where you meet your jodoh.
Not only that, how long your jodoh lasts is also in God's hand.
Itu lah yang di namakan suratan takdir, and you have to accept dengan penuh rela.
I never regret being married to my ex-hubby. I terima suratan takdir that the jodoh only lasted 14 years with him - 7 years of which we were married.
The years have been good for us, only the days were not enough.
Or rather, the days have been good for us, only the nights were not enough.
Most important thing is not how many times you fall. It how many times you get up after your fall.
I'm glad I still have my sense of humor despite my predicament. Now that is a blessing, really!
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