Mencari Cinta?

Every now and then, I do feel a kind of urgent need for stability. Those who are happily married and settled down may not understand what I feel, but those who are single and looking may feel this sometimes. Some feel it all the time. Or else, reality shows like "Mencari Cinta" or "Who Wants To Marry My Dad" won't have wide audiences.

But what is really behind this feeling? It's like this, really. Sometimes, I just wanna find a partner and settle down, even if I have to throw caution in the wind and take a blind chance by taking the second best option. All my options right now are second best or not good for me. There's always a piece of the jigsaw puzzle missing in what I see in them. I haven't found that X-Factor I'm looking for.

When I become rational and "sober" again, the urgency just dissipates and dies down. Then I'd be thinking, hey, I don't wanna settle for the second best option just because I haven't come across my best option. Because only the best option will do. Plainly put, I don't wanna get married for the sake of getting married. Everything must feel and look right, and it will be a decision that I can make peace with for a lifetime. Call me choosy and picky, I will agree.

My new housemate suggested I make my wish list - list down all the qualities that my life partner must have, as well as things that I can compromise, and habits that are no-no for me. That way, I'll be more focused and won't waste my time on candidates who don't meet my wish list, and will weed out losers right at the start. She also said I should set my passing requirement, say at 80:20 ratio just like Pareto's Law. Wow, this is serious stuff! Hehehe I'm coming with my wish list...coming soon!